This was me quite recently.
This is a weird one for me because typically it’s been a role, a job, or an event that I didn’t really want to be at. But this time I’m in a country where quite frankly I just don’t want to be.
It’s not that’s it’s unattractive, boring, or mundane. It’s actually madly beautiful here, and the rain is falling just the way I like it. However, I still don’t want to be here. I’m sure I’m not the only one; sometimes we find ourselves in some of the most unfortunate circumstances and it is out of our jurisdiction to get out.
The funny thing about these situations that are unforeseen and unwanted… they teach you a lot about yourself. And I sure did learn quite a bit about myself in this time. I’m hoping as I unravel some bits, it can help you bring a familiarity that can help you crawl out of a slumber or simply bring some revelation to you.
One thing to note: bitterness and anger will try follow you; if you let it. I found myself having to check my attitude constantly. I would go back and forth with either being mad at the people around me, God, or myself. It’s actually okay to feel these feelings, but for it to take effect and display in your life is only an encouragement to the Enemy. I was trying to displace my bitterness and anger instead of just feeling and let it be simply a feeling and nothing more.
Life’s motivation can run out the window sometimes. You wake up one morning and all you want to do is have popcorn for breakfast, lunch, and dinner while finding something on Netflix to serial watch. It happens to the best of us. If that day you can push yourself to find the motivation to do one thing, do it. Spring clean that cupboard, or go for a run, have coffee with a friend – whatever your heart can do, DO IT.
Let yourself be you. I was reminded of this during my time of being right where I didn’t want to be. I realized that I actually didn’t need to be brave; I didn’t need to be anything but Me. Allow yourself to be you, collapse into Jesus, fall apart in His presence, and let Him show you how to live. He will help you to do that season of your life the best way.
Lastly, you will not want help, you will not want to confide in your weakness and vulnerabilities to the most loved ones around you. But from my experience, find your soul people and ask them for help. If they are your soul people, they will let you do what you need to do, but still encourage and pray with you over the situation. My favourite soul person is my mother, and boy I wouldn’t know how to cope without her.
These are all really simple things we have learned an abundance of times, however I still need that reminder – as I’m not big on expressing the complexities in my mind and I usually need a bit more time to process it.
This is my note to say, “I get it, I get your frustration.”
This may not solve or diminish your current unwanted situation, but guess what it’s there – as long as you have played your part, there’s not much else you can do. And you have to let God. Yes, just simply ‘let God’ and do not let your heart be swayed by it.
Let me be clear, these situations have the opportunity to bring the worst out of an individual, to input and disrupt a glorious plan for your life. And for you reader, I do not want that to happen to you.
Isaiah 41:10 MSG
I’ve picked you. I haven’t dropped you.
Don’t panic. I’m with you.
There’s no need to fear for I’m your God.
I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you.
I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.